Chupana bhi nahi ata, batana bhi nahi ata!

 

" Mera dil bhi kitna pagal hai, yeh pyaar to tumse karta hai, par samane jab tum aate ho, kuch bhi kehne se darta hai!",

 


I was singing the song in karaoke but the words were expressing my exact emotions.


Sheena smirked, as she knew, my every little secret. It was a karaoke birthday party, of one of my school friends, Aksh. He had this beautiful mansion with a home theatre and karaoke. His birthdays were always lavish and he invited the whole class.

Sheena had a huge crush on Aksh and never missed his birthday parties. And I had to tag along.


"Har pal mujhko tadpata hai, mujhe saari raat jagata hai, iss baat ki tumko khabar nahi, yeh sirf tumhi pe marta hai",
 


  I was singing this line and he entered the room.
All the girls' heads turned towards him. Rahul,  Naam to suna hi hoga, was a popular boy at school. He was late for the party. He glanced at me, our eyes met.... and the " Sirf tumhi pe marta hai".. part....I
goofed up. He turned his head, away from me.
"Shit, I messed up!"  I thought in my head. "Was it obvious? Did he hate it? Did he turn his head cause he didn't like my singing? .....
  I almost got teary eyed. Sheena took the mic from my hand and completed the song for me. Sheena had been my savior, always!

We finished the karaoke part and rushed to the food counter. Sheena was looking for starters. I randomly picked up a fruit drink, in a haste, it was some mocktail. And I spit it out, "Eeww!", it was awful. I reached out my hand, to get a tissue and someone handed me one.....it was Rahul. " Did he just see me spit the drink? Oh no, I messed up some more",

my thoughts were nagging me. Rahul handed me the tissue paper and left. Sheena was all excited. "Did he say anything?Did he smile? Tell me na jaldi...", she kept blurting.
I told her what had happened. " Ria, you.... what? He saw you spitting?", she banged her hand on her forehead and said,  "Tera na.. kuch nahi hoga".



I got more nervous. I had kept messing up my chances to get close to my crush.Yeah! You all have already guessed right! I had a crush on Rahul.




  Why do they call it a Crush? - Because thats how you feel when they don't feel the same way in return ~ Unknown.





Start of the year, my seat in class was just next to Rahul's seat. But one of my friends complained of her poor eyesight and I switched my seat with her. "Ria, dumbo! Don't you get that its her trick? You are only good at studies, nothing else", Sheena had scolded me. Sheen had never given up her seat besides Aksh, for 2 years now.




Rahul and me were chosen as chemistry practical partners, through chit selection. But the next day Prerna said that she was uncomfortable with her boy partner so I helped her, by switching partners. Obviously losing my chance, yet again. "  Just jump through this damn window now, or should I push you?",Sheena had annoyingly said to me.




" I really don't know what happens to me when I am around him. I feel puzzled, I feel happy but anxious, I feel like telling him that I like him, but at the same time, am afraid that he will reject me", I had shared my feelings with Sheena. "

  I know, its hard to speak your heart, but why do you give up the chances of being around him? May be you will get to know him well. When you talk to each other, you will know what he thinks about you", Sheena had advised me. She herself, hadn't yet told Aksh about her feelings, but yes, she was atleast in talking terms with him.



Well I had talked to Rahul too, last year, at the MUN(Model United Nations - extra curricular activity where students roleplay as UN delegates). When he wanted a full scape paper and I had given him one. He had thanked me and I had replied with a " Welcome".Sheena had laughed, when I told her about this. " You call it a chat?",she had teased me.

"You have a brother, you know how to act around boys. I am a single child, I get bewildered at such times", I had told her.

  His mind was a library and I wanted to read all the books! ~ Unknown







" Let's eat something",

Sheena said, pulling my hand and taking me to the Chinese counter, in the party. " I don't like Chinese, you know na Sheena",I said. " Then try some pizza, its great!", "Why are you imitating Rahul?",I asked and turned to her. But it was really Rahul. Sheena was standing at the other end, talking to Aksh.
I didn't know how to react. " Should I say thanks? Should I smile? Should I ....",all the shoulds and shouldn'ts were popping in my head, all at once. Rahul asked me to follow him, gesturing with his hand. And me, like a lost child followed him. " One mix veg topping  on thin crust please, with lots of corn", Rahul placed the order. I stood there like a statue. Rahul smiled and handed me the pizza. " I know you like corn", he said. I looked at him amazed, with a 'how did he know?', expression. Rahul said that during last year's  trip to Lonavala, he had seen me eating 5 corns. " OMG!",I thought, " He must be thinking I am a bhukkad",I started to feel embarrassed. "You know what? I like corn and you too",he said. I nodded, with a fake smile, to cover up my embarrassment........"  Wait!, What did he just say?, my ears must be ringing....he said he likes corn and Me?",

I could've fainted then and there. But Sheena came in and grabbed a slice of pizza from my plate (see, shes my savior). I looked at her and then back to Rahul. He grinned and left.




The pizza bite choked in my throat. Sheena punched me in my back. I felt relieved.....wait, relived? Really? No. What was that?
Did it just took off? The Crazy, Stupid, school crush..... spun into Love?
 






to be continued......


JUI.





   AUTHOR'S NOTE:
 


  There is nothing better than, when your crush has a crush on you too! - Unknown.
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