Diary 2024

 

And 2024 ends.....

What a roller coaster ride! 

Every year passes by and the new year comes afore, leaving you with something and making you leave something. 

It would be quite odd if time doesn't indoctrinate our minds. This year taught me so much, like the previous one and the prior ones too! I have learnt valuable lessons thanks to 2024. The year was challenging, demanding yet gratifying. 

What I grasped this year would be exemplar for rest of my life! 

The fear of losing your close ones, leaves you petrified. While the close ones are battling, struggling with all their mights, you feel helpless even when you have honest intentions of support. Mental support, yes that can be given in abundance, there's no ceiling to it. But the one you intend to support is going through so much that sometimes just being there, showing up is also helpful. 

Sleepless nights, nightmares haunted me for days. But then when you see them valiantly striving and vanquishing the battle, it's reassuring, at the same time immensely inspiring. Life is unpredictable and it keeps us reminding the same. But when you see people genuinely conforming in such capricious situations you are in aww. There's so much yet to learn, says my mind!

Starting something new is challenging yet invigorating. You gain and cognize about several concepts you hadn't even heard of. The ardent side of you dazzles and how. Research, correspondence and analysis, the upshot of approved thoughts by all the working brains and the acme of achievement, makes the experience fulfilling. And at large, supplementing fruitful and rewarding years to your life.

Maintaining certain lifestyle isn't an easy task. Be it any year, your finances keep you drenched or dry you up. Being an engineer, I was ignorant about commerce. I knew the basics but never thought of getting well versed. To be honest, I never bothered to educate myself about it, even ignoring my dad who had insisted on several times to be updated. But as you age, you mature and you dread the future, your security. This is when you start tallying your assets and liabilities, and boom, something in your brain lights up. You find a click bait and your brain prompts you to go for it. Little did it know how it's going to enlighten and awaken the lobes and folds that were beginning to oxidise. And the bait worked!

Never had I felt so empowered, like I did after handling my own finances. 

"A woman is respected more if she earns and contirbutes to the family funds. Furthermore, if she knows how to invest and reap", is what my mother always says. Earning part was already happening but the other part, I finally could relate. 

The kind of confidence you get when you start ticking the boxes in your bucket list, is unparalleled. The way you look at things change once you are enriched with life experiences, bitter and sweet. 

While my finances were slowly falling in place, I never quit my writing expedition. Also learning a new language was on my bucket list. Hence, learning and writing were happening side by side, just like school times. It's amusing to keep acquiring new skills and using them for your good. Also learning something just because you wanted to, holds equally true. Not everything you are getting literate about will be of use to you, but you never know.

Also, you can do certain things just because they make you happy and it's completely justified. 

My writing journey has been a relaxant and a way of unwinding for me. When passion and pleasure are amalgamated the results are startling. And thus my second book of poetry came into existence. My fellow bloggers, family and friends always encourage me and the impetus was this book. My happiness multiplied when I got my book published before the year ended. Another feather added to the cap!

Even if the start is shaky or bumpy, trust your strengths and achieve your goals. 

An important life lesson I learnt once again, but this time vividly is, people are an integral part of your life. Don't disregard their significance when they aren't around always. They think about you, wish you well, even in the absence they want you to be happy. But if people are getting irrelevant, their actions and words are contrasting, then I guess its a signal for you to keep a distance. 

It's bizzare how five days spent with someone who was never a part of your plans, can change you as a person. You become humble, get a reality check and it alters your approach to certain things. Someone like me who was never into pets, one fine morning found a feeble newborn kitten. It was helplessly squeaking and my motherly instincts couldn't unsee it. I skeptically took it in. We then took it to a vet, fed it, nursed it. This bond unexpectedly intensified each passing day. We kept searching for the mother cat but in vain. I was thinking may be the mother cat has died. But then I newly discovered that the mother cat can abandon it's kitten if it's weak, life lessons served pipping hot, enough to burn your mouth. 

And on the 6th day, with the lack of it's mother's warmth, the kitten, who hadn't even opened it's eyes to see the world, sadly crossed over the rainbow bridge. It was as if something inherent from my life has all of a sudden melted away into thin air. My tears were a contradiction to my otherwise stance against pets. The incidence broke my heart.

I don't know if I would like to have a pet now, but this incidence certainly changed my view towards them. Or may be that's why I never had a pet, as handling this cruel parting is arduous for me, for I put my soul and heart once I accept someone in my life.

So thus, 2024 sometimes treated me like a princess and sometimes took me for granted. But now that I'm trying to master the skill of letting go, I hope 2025 makes things easier for me or the least chaperones in my journey. 

Wishing everyone a very Happy new year!

P.S. - Don't make resolutions, you ought to procrastinate, instead do what's best at the given moment!

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