A letter to my tomorrow!

 Dear future me,

I know you will be in pink of your health. Well, I'm trying to keep you so, to my best efforts. 

I try to be punctual with my exercise routine. Also eating properly, not every, but major of the times. You would be surprised to hear that I'm giving up things which are my favourite. Perhaps you won't be much amazed, as you already are in the state, where you've seen more seasons and lived through experiences that have matured you even more. But right now I'm amazed with me being able to leave what was once very dear to me. 

As we grow older, things dawn upon us. We regret certain decisions, for being stubborn certain times. Ultimately, we don't yield enough but the time is already wasted. I've discovered that being impatient, adamant leaves you with only anxiety. Instead I'm trying to pacify myself, taking a small step towards that inner peace.

You know what? I'm trying to figure out the purpose of my being. Well, I know I sound childish to you, but thanks to me you are there, at that place now, where you are aware and literate. I read spiritual texts, I analyse, I argue, I assent and I learn. Sometimes it makes sense and sometimes it doesn't, but I don't cease, my quest continues. 

Your finances are simplified and I know you are grateful to me, who is exploring this new phase, more like an epoch for you. Learning more about financial planning. Being aware and keeping a track of whether our money is going in the right places. Leashing those hands who wish to squander a little bit. It's a tough job but trust me, my attempts will be fruitful. And you must be reaping the fruits by now!

You must be happy and content. Do you have just handful of friends? Well, thank me then, the work's in progress, the scrutiny is on. I am not chasing the unknown. I don't want to indulge in anything that disturbs my well being. I've stopped forcing relationships, desisting my actions of over involvement. I am in a happy stage, don't worry. That past self of me going out of the way for people, placing others before self, and all those hassles, I've skipped, for good. This new chapter is for self care, self love and loving those who are my people, who always stayed by my side. And they know who they are and they are with you even now.

Hey writer, I hope we're still writing. I know we would never quit this.This endeavour of ours, though rediscovered a tad tardy, but we've found so much repose in it. People meditate, we write. I really want to know if you've achieved our dream, publishing a bestseller! The prep is on, fingers are crossed....errr....fingers are typing, relentlessly. Do you still get up in the middle of night and scribble in the notebook on your side table? Ummm, I won't be surprised if you still do. What superb ideas those are! I cannot believe when I read some of my past poetry, quotes, blogs or stories. But I'm sure you are convinced, as you've seen us grow. 

Have you found perfection? I know, no such thing exists, but the OCD for few things here and there, I hope you've taken care of. 

"Aging is an extraordinary process where you become the person you always should have been" - David Bowie.

I am trying to be that person for us. I am trying to garner all the bitter-sweet moments for you, a cushion for our old age. If you've a decent count of places you've been to, moments celebrated, hugs and kisses from loved ones, seen pale tints of sunsets, stories told and read, and above all, those numerous hearty laughs, then fill your heart with pride. That's exactly how old you are, age is just a number. 

Let me wrap up, kids are going to school and I've work to do. You can enjoy your time, it must be so fulfilling and gratifying to retrospect and see you've done your best. You deserve it!

Take care and keep writing. 

Yours faithfully, 

Present me.

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