The voice!

 "Ahem! Ahem! Hmmm, hmmmm", a strange husky voice filled up the complete atmosphere. 

"Such an irritating sound that is", I say to myself. "Why don't they gargle or take some lozenges (cough drops)?".

"It wouldn't have been this bad if you had refrained from eating icecreams for consecutive 3 days. What lozenges, you may need antibiotics now!", the hoarse voice iterates.

I look around to see who is taunting me. And how are my icecreams their culprits?

"None of your business!", I murmur.

"Okay then bear with it", the same hoarsely sound.

"Who are you and if you've guts speak face to face", I dare the unknown. 

But nobody pops out. 

Instead the irritation continues, "Hey, ignorant female, it's me, your inner voice".

I again look around to see if someone is pranking me. But when I hear this my eyes open wide, "This female keeps changing her mind. She doesn't follow her own set up routine. She doesn't avoid icecreams even when her throat gets infected easily. She's becoming lethargic nowadays. Hey, hey, you've office to attend. You've writing assignments, you've an exercise routine to follow. And mind you, you also have messy rooms waiting for being cleaned and organised. Huh! She thinks just because her kids' exams are over, it's her vacation time too".

And I accept my defeat. I clear my throat. "Well, the thing is.....", the inner voice doesn't even allow me to complete my sentence. 

"The thing is....Stop procrastinating!", it says equally harshly.

I feel cornered, that too by my own self. But it is so true. How can I even argue? You can argue with a different person but how do you argue with your own true self?

"I'm sorry!", I again put my weapons down.

"This must be your 12,345th 'sorry' from last two years I guess! Do you even mean it anymore?", it says, now sounding raspy and angry.

I fidget with my phone to avoid the embarrassment. 

"Stop that at once!", my goodness now it sounded authoritative.

"Mom is it you?", I felt like asking.

The voice continued without paying any heed to my glum face. 

"Stop scrolling on your phone now! You go to family dinners and everyone is scrolling on the phones? You meet your friends and your are still on your phones? Your mom is telling you something and you're busy typing side by side? It's an epitome of impoliteness, do you even attach any importance to the person sitting there for you?".

Now this is deviation from the topic. And is getting serious, such grave allegations. But I recall doing all that was mentioned and feel guilty. I am at loss of words. 

"I'm really sorry, this time I mean it", I hold my ears and say, like a small kid accepting her punishment.

And I open my eyes to find myself holding my ears and uttering something. 

"Oh it was just a dream", I think to myself. 

"Hah! What a profound dream it was", I say out aloud and to my surprise I sound exactly like my harsh inner voice.

I clear my throat several times. I rush to the bathroom to gargle but in vain. "Ahem! Ahem! Hmmm, hmmm", the husky voice doesn't alter. "Icecreams", the harsh voice screams.

'Listen to your inner voice. It is the calling of your spiritual GPS system, seeking to keep you on track towards your true destiny' - Anthon St. Maarten.

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